Tangents

I didn't really have "morning sickness" during my first trimester. I had about a month of nausea, but never threw up from it. I just had to lay in bed for a while until it went away. Sometimes it hit me in the morning, other times in the middle of the night. Anyhow, all that to say, I shouldn't complain that I should not complain that I feel sick right now, because I had plenty of friends who had terrible morning sickness for weeks - throwing up a few times a day and getting migraines. BUT, I'm going to complain anyhow.

So I feel SICK this morning! :( Some mornings are just like that. I generally feel sick at some point during the day, nearly every day. It's usually not so bad, and passes after a little bit of time. But it's still annoying. I thought that because I was in my 2nd trimester that I would be feeling much better, because that is what I heard happens. But I suppose every woman is different. I'm a little less exhausted, but still quite tired if I don't get almost a full 10 hours of sleep. (I got about 9 last night, so maybe that's why I feel yucky?)I've always been someone who needed at least 8 to 9 hours of sleep even before pregnancy in order to feel good, anyhow. I get headaches nearly every day that are only cured by Tylenol, and that works just for a couple of hours. I hear headaches are quite common in the 2nd trimester, though. And then there's this sick queasy feeling I get most mornings if I don't sleep enough, get up too fast, don't eat right away, etc. Sometimes it feels like I'm going to vomit, but I don't. Anyhow, that's how I feel this morning. Oh the life of a pregnant woman. :)

Tis a blessing though!!! Ever since I was little, I wanted to be wife and mommy. That's all I ever wanted. And guess what? My dream is coming true! People told me I couldn't do it. They said that I wouldn't be able to stay home and not work. They said I was foolish to expect my husband to be able to support our family with one income. I say they are way too hasty to jump to that conclusion! It bothered me every single time. If we had money, I would be quite happy - I wouldn't have to keep such a tight leash on our budget. I wouldn't have to be on WIC, or get a discount on our PGandE bill, we might be able to go out to eat more than once every couple of months and even get our own meal instead of sharing and also just getting water. We could maybe even go to a movie, or a sporting even with our friends, or even buy a bed that's at least a queen and not a full. But you know what? I love my life just how it is! We are not poor in any sense of the word. We have FAR MORE "things" and "money" than the majority of the people in the world and even in Fresno. We are spoiled. Yes, we live on an EXTREMELY tight budget and spend WAY less than most people do, but we have Jesus, we have each other, we have this precious tiny baby growing in me, we have our wonderful family and our sweet friends, we have our health! We are SPOILED and blessed. :) Thank you, Lord, for always providing for our needs and surprising us with monetary blessings just when we need them. He is good. He is beyond good.

Did I go off on a tangent?

P.s. I love my husband. He is the most supportive and loving man I have EVER met. I dated a whole of guys before him and wanted to marry most of them. How silly was I? God brought sweet Jordan (young as he is!) into my life just in His perfect timing and caused him to sweep me off my feet and fall in love with him. I will never worry about him hurting me, leaving me, belittling me, yelling at me, ignoring me, or being cruel ever. He has been a fabulous husband in this short 6 months we have been married and I am confident he will only get better. I know he is going to be an amazing daddy, too! He can't wait. :) He loves kids and he's smart! He is so creative and smart it's disgusting, haha. Our children are going to adore him. Thank You, God, for my wonderful husband.

Alright, that's it for my more ramblings. :) Have a wonderful day!