Had another dream that I'm having a girl. That's 3 dreams so far. I don't know if it's because I "secretly" want to have a girl, or if people are telling me they think it's a girl, or if I keep thinking it's a girl, or if God is telling me it's a girl....haha. Either way, boy, girl - I'll just take a healthy baby! In all my dreams my baby is healthy and I start breastfeeding right away with no problems. I'm thankful for these good dreams. :) They always have some really weird stuff in them, though - of course. Like last night the hospital was really old and ghetto with carpeting in the rooms and a huge wood burning fireplace in the elevator. And for some reason my baby grows quite rapidly after I give birth. First she's a newborn and then suddenly I'm nursing a 6 month old. Very strange. Sometimes she has dark hair and sometimes she's bald.
On another note....sleep has been a pain in the butt. I can't seem to get comfortable and it's quite annoying because usually I am a champion sleeper. I used to fall asleep within 5 minutes, nothing would wake me up, and I'd sleep all through the night. Now suddenly that I am further along in my pregnancy I take forever to fall asleep, I wake up every 2 hours, and I toss and turn and can't get comfortable for the life of me. I'm only 13 weeks! I don't even have a tummy! I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I have a basketball for a stomach. Oh well. There are worse things in life. The good news is, it's not like I have to wake up at any particular time and I'm always free to take a nap in the middle of the day! Soooo I should not complain. :)
Then on another note...and please don't get mad...but I'm not gonna lie! I feel FAT. Feeling fat is not fun. I've been skinny all my life. I have worn a size 2 and have weighed around 120 since I was 16. That's 10 years now, people. I have 2 pairs of size 4's - they are my "fat jeans" for when I breach 125...and guess what? I'm in them. I can still squeeze into my 2's, but I have to use the niffy rubber band fastening system to keep them closed. I wake up in the morning and I don't look even remotely pregnant, but then as the day progresses, the bloating ensues!! Ahhhhhhh retched bloating!!!! It adds like, 3 inches to my waist and makes me feel terribly unattractive and gross. Ahhhhh! The vanity of it all!!! I can't wait for my baby bump to ACTUALLY be a baby bump and not a gassy, bloated, food baby bump! I will probably still feel fat, but at least I won't be ashamed to wear a tight shirt and let that puppy show it's true colors. Right now I'm all about baby doll tops and loose sweaters. I know, I have problems, right? Sheesh.
Well, that's my ranting for the day. Time to start my housewifely duties and wash dishes/make the bed/clean the bathroom/etc. :) I like staying home - it's a dream job - every who is able should do it!
This thing is expensive, but it's a lifesaver. I got it when I was 9 weeks with Noah because I couldn't sleep and it was awesome. With this baby I didn't need it until around 6 months, but I'm grateful for it now.
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